I need christian answers!?

Ok I have a difficult time understanding some things...But I go to church every week, i am saved and just got baptized! Amen! :) but i have had a hard time understanding this Jesus is God, I believe it or I want soooo bad too but its difficult for some reason?? Not sure? Also Expain jesus the son? Hes not literly but??.....Also how dying on the cross forgave us for our sins? I have been reading the bible or trying but its also difficult. I have ADD. lol No meds! Ha Ha...But I want to put all my faith and trust in him but I feel as if something is holding me back but not sure what maybe cause I dont understand 100%?? Please if anyone could help explain i simple terms.?.?.?.?